jules

if i could  be the friend I meant to be
would that change the course of destiny?
would you have known a deeper love
to give you power to rise above?

all things may have ended up the same
but still I wish I'd called your name
let you know that I still cared
that I would always be right there

for one more day of friendship with you
to share your joys and your pains too.
I'd give so much to have it all back
as your friend I would not slack

I meant to call I meant to write
but now I spend these long dark nights
remembering you and what might have been
if we could start all over again

A second chance?

If you've kept up with my posts or my FB, then you know that I lost a close friend last week.   Her death and the circumstances surrounding it has been devastating to me.  We were very close in college and had since lost touch.  We had been meaning to get together, but never quite got our schedules lined up.  Now I know that if I could do it again I would make it a top priority.  One line in the song "Treasure of the Broken Land" says "Nobody gets the second chance to be the friend they meant to be."  I, along with most of my friends that knew Julie in college, feel a tremendous regret for not being more there for her.  I know that I'll always regret not knowing her in the more recent years.


While I don't get a second chance with Julie, I do feel like it's a wake up call to be a better friend to others God brings across my path.  There are many people, myself included, who could use deeper friendships.  Also, I can stay better in touch with the friends who I have been close to in my past.  I am praying that though I have regret about Julie, God will make me "the friend I meant to be" for present and future friendships.