Monday, April 18, 2011

A walk with Him.

In times of brokenness, nature  beckons me to draw closer to God. God invites me to see glimpses of His glory all around me as He opens my eyes to truly see. 

The day I took these photos God gave me glimpses of Himself and it turned from a day lost in myself to one focused on Christ, His suffering, His victory, His love, and His call for me to follow.

Will you walk with me and share in what He has done?

"And they stripped him and put a scarlet robe on him, and twisting together a crown of thorns, they put it on his head and put a reed in his right hand. And kneeling before him, they mocked him, saying, "Hail, King of the Jews!" And they spit on him and took the reed and struck him on the head. And when they had mocked him, they stripped him of the robe and put his own clothes on him and led him away to crucify him."
Matthew 27: 28-31

This tree was uprooted and leaning at just the right angle that I could imagine someone straining to carry it.

"As they went out, they found a man of Cyrene, Simon by name. They compelled this man to carry his cross. And when they came to a place called Golgotha (which means Place of a Skull), they offered him wine to drink, mixed with gall, but when he tasted it, he would not drink it. And when they had crucified him, they divided his garments among them by casting lots. Then they sat down and kept watch over him there. And over his head they put the charge against him, which read, “This is Jesus, the King of the Jews.” 
Matthew 27: 32-37

"So they took Jesus, and he went out, bearing his own cross, to the place called The Place of a Skull, which in Aramaic is called Golgotha." John 19:17


I cannot say enough about this picture.  The scar, the crimson red.  He captured my attention with this little leaf.  While pulling out of the parking lot, I spotted it, halted, leapt out and snapped this shot.  I stand in awe to see that God paints His story throughout creation. 

 "Surely he has borne our griefs

and carried our sorrows;

yet we esteemed him stricken,

smitten by God, and afflicted.
But he was wounded for our transgressions;

he was crushed for our iniquities;
upon him was the chastisement that brought us peace,

and with his stripes we are healed.


All we like sheep have gone astray;


we have turned—every one—to his own way;
and the Lord has laid on him

the iniquity of us all." Isaiah 53: 4-6






The heart embraced in crimson points to how great His love for us is. 

  "The Lord is merciful and gracious,
slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love.
He will not always chide,
nor will he keep his anger forever.
He does not deal with us according to our sins,
nor repay us according to our iniquities.
For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his steadfast love toward those who fear him;
as far as the east is from the west,
so far does he remove our transgressions from us.
As a father shows compassion to his children,
so the Lord shows compassion to those who fear him."
Psalm 103: 8-13





He is risen! He stands victorious over sin and death.  He rose out of the darkness and back into God's glorious presence.  Through Him we share the victory!

 "For as Jonah was three days and three nights in the belly of a huge fish, 
so the Son of Man will be three days and three nights in the heart of the earth." 
Matthew 12:40

"But God raised him from the dead, freeing him from the agony of death, 
because it was impossible for death to keep its hold on him." Acts 2:24

"He will swallow up death forever;
and the Lord God will wipe away tears from all faces,
and the reproach of his people he will take away from all the earth,
for the Lord has spoken.
 It will be said on that day,
'Behold, this is our God; we have waited for him, that he might save us.
This is the Lord; we have waited for him;
let us be glad and rejoice in his salvation.'” 
Isaiah 25: 8-9

The story does not end with the Resurrection.  Christ comes back to comfort His followers, promise His return, and give them direction.  His last words tell His followers their new role of sharing the message of His victory over sin and death so that we could have new life.

"Now the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain to which Jesus had directed them. And when they saw him they worshiped him, but some doubted. And Jesus came and said to them, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age.” Matthew 28: 16-19

"For we speak as messengers approved by God to be entrusted with the Good News. Our purpose is to please God, not people. He alone examines the motives of our hearts." 1 Thessalonians 2:4 NLT


"And he said to all, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will save it." Luke 9: 23-24










More grace received



"Thanksgiving--giving thanks in everything--prepares the way that God might show us His fullest salvation in Christ.  The act sacrificing thank offerings to God-- even for the bread and cup of cost, for cancer and crucifixion--this prepares the way for God to show us His fullest salvation from bitter, angry, resentful lives and from all sin that estranges us from Him." Ann Voskamp, One Thousand Gifts: A Dare to Live Fully Right Where You Are

342.  A broken a.c. that reminds me of luxury I take for granted.
343.  Sharing Jesus with my 3 year old
344.  Bags, still unpacked, of dirty clothes that remind me my husband is home
345.  Boy covered from head to toe in dirt, evidence of playing hard
346.  Finally, a baby girl baby shower
347.  An afternoon of unexpected rest
348.  We have a living hoPe (1 Peter 1:3)
349.  Psalm 27:10
350.  God has chosen me, called me to Himself, and adopted me as His child
351.  I have all I need for life and godliness (2 Peter 1:3)
352.  Seeing God's glory in nature.
353.  Father/son camping trips
354.  Hope fulfilled, an adoption celebration
355.  Progress on  developing my website.
356.  My church family
357.  This week to reflect and remember what Christ has done.



Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Remembering


Though greatly blessed with two wonderful boys, I'll always remember the baby I never held.  I thank God for all that He has done. I praise Him that His ways are best.  I hope and long for the day I'll meet Ashlynn Haven when I go Home. 

Truth that overcomes


Lying on his tummy my four month old son focuses on the rattle, his head bobbling a little as he reaches forward.  He swats at it several times, mostly missing the desired object, but never taking his eye off of it.  With all of his strength he determines to have it.  Finally his swats aim dead on and he clinches and clings to it.

This paints a picture of my struggle to know God intimately.  I want to know Him, I try with all that I am, and yet I miss the mark so often.  I'm thankful for His grace and mercy and that He who began the good work in me will bring it to perfection (Phil 1:6).  I have been fighting idols in my heart and habits of negative thinking.  Why this struggle?  Why am I this way?  I trace roots back to those before me, empty with nothing to give.  Lost, seeking and searching, living to survive.  Emptiness breeds emptiness and I long to be full. Alcohol, abuse, and abandonment dig a chasm at the core of who I am.

I know Christ, my Redeemer, Brother, and Healer.  I know Love, but do I accept it at my core?  How often do I let the chasm define me and direct me.  In distrust of love do I turn away from Love?  I struggle to find Him, to grasp a glimpse of Him, and to cling to Him.

When the truth of my past and the pain that it holds surfaces, victory awaits over it.  Jesus, the Truth (John 14:6), combats all the little truths that haunt the weary heart.  I need only turn to Him, fall at His feet, confess my endless sins and offer all that I am (or am not) in exchange for all that He is.  My nourishment, my fulfillment can be found in Him alone.  Everything else falls short and only feeds the chasm.  He has come to bring life and bring it to the FULL (John 10:10).

How can the wounded one at the core of me learn to trust and accept all that is good?  I've been reading several books in addition to the Bible to help with this battle. I think often I read God's Word and believe it to an extent, but don't fully accept it for myself.  One suggestion offered in, Please Don't Say Need Me, is to make God's promises personal by inserting your name.  At first this seemed kind of silly, but I have found this helpful in allowing God's Word to seep into deeper levels of who I am.  In a sense it's like speaking Scripture to myself.

I find an endless list of promises that bring hope in God's Word. Here are a few promises for the battle:
"May the God of your hope so fill you with all joy and peace in believing [through the experience of your faith] that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound and be overflowing (bubbling over) with hope. " Romans 15: 13


"So let us seize and hold fast and retain without wavering the hope we cherish and confess and our acknowledgement of it, for He Who promised is reliable (sure) and faithful to His word." Hebrews 10: 23


"Wait and hope for and expect the Lord; be brave and of good courage and let your heart be stout and enduring. Yes, wait for and hope for and expect the Lord." Psalm 27: 14

Also, As I learn more about God and who He is, His grandeur diminishes anything that stands in His place in my heart.  "To know the attributes of God-his characteristics-is to know he is trustworthy.  As you get to know Him, you will be able to relax with him, rely on him, and deepen your relationship until your longing to be loved, valued and secure is satisfied in him." Jan Silvious Please Don't Say You Need Me: Biblical Answers for Codependency

I am learning to meditate on who He is and worship Him for who He is and what He has done. Healing takes place as I gain a right view of Him and of myself as His child.

As Easter approaches, I rejoice in the victory Christ holds through the life He lived perfectly and that He gave his life sacrificially on the cross for me.  The victory is ours through Him!



Sunday, April 10, 2011

Gifts of Grace.

"'Be thou exalted' is the language of victorious spiritual experience.  It is a little key to unlock the door to great treasures of grace.  It is central in the life of God in the soul.  Let the seeking man reach a place where life and lips join to say continually 'Be thou exalted' and a thousand minor problems will be solved at once." A.W. Tozer The Pursuit of God with Study Guide

It has become my prayer that He would be exalted, that He would be at the center of my life.  All of these gifts flow from Him and to Him. I'm so thankful for such a faithful Father.

324. Each first.  First time in a swing.
325.  Three year old chasing lizards.
326.  An abundance of real friends
327.  A Treasure worth selling everything for.
328.  Brothers playing.

329.  Sharing Hats

330. Puzzles with 3 year old.
331.  Vulnerability among friends
332.  Late night glow of my desk lamp

333. Baby boy's laughter.
334. God's goodness.
335.  Communion with Him.
336.  The freedom offered in Christ.
337.  He has made me glad
338.  Time to run errands without kids in tow.
339.  Stir-fry made by husband.
340.  An undisturbed nap.
341.  A new senior pastor for our church.


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