Thursday, April 8, 2010

Things unsaid

I've had little time to write and lots of time to think lately.  Add those two things together and I have a lot to say.  Now to narrow it down...

Thanks to my friends that encourage me not to keep things bottled up.  I continue to settle into this new "normal" of my life.  I think about my baby often and the impact that losing her has had on my life.  I never talk about these things though, because the subject never comes up.  It's hard to know how to be sometimes and I find it hard that she's never mentioned.  I know it's an uncomfortable subject, but I feel bad about it.

I am also afraid to move forward for fear that I will forget. That I will forget her, the ways that I have changed, and the new priorities I have been given.

With that said, tonight I have a full heart, one full of joy in my faithful Father and Friend, and full of strength that only comes from Him as I lay my burdens down at His feet.

Isaiah 40 competes with Romans 8 for my favorite chapter of the Bible.   I love the whole chapter,  it moves from the Lord's comfort, to our minuteness, to His greatness, to His power in all creation, to our weariness, to His strength... TRULY AWESOME! Here is the ending:
"28 Do you not know?
       Have you not heard?
       The LORD is the everlasting God,
       the Creator of the ends of the earth.
       He will not grow tired or weary,
       and his understanding no one can fathom.
 29 He gives strength to the weary
       and increases the power of the weak.

 30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
       and young men stumble and fall;

 31 but those who hope in the LORD
       will renew their strength.
       They will soar on wings like eagles;
       they will run and not grow weary,
       they will walk and not be faint."

1 comment:

My Life as a Mom said...

Love that passage! You will not forget her though at some point she will not be a part of your everyday thoughts but your heart will always be full of love for her. And on that day when you get to meet her--what a day of rejoicing! Please keep sharing and don't be ashamed to do so. We share each others burdens.

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