The new smile that lights up his face stops strangers in their tracks at the grocery store. Everywhere I go, people ask about him, stopping to enjoy a moment of the joy and wonder that babies bring with them.
His smile seems so pure. He's helpless and doesn't know much. He's needy and can't do anything for himself. However, he knows how to rest and be joyful in my presence. He knows that I'll keep him safe, feed him, clean him, and love on him. He desperately depends on me to do so. At this point in life, he looks to me for everything, and he smiles joyfully knowing that he has all that he needs. This simple faith knows more than me.
Every time he smiles at me, I melt. Lost in the moment, nothing else seems to matter as pure joy reigns and bridles me in from the cares of the world. I feel full. Reminded of my Father, I wonder if this may be just a glimpse of the way He rejoices over me. Oh that I would desperately depend on Him for everything I need, rest in His presence, and allow simple joy come from within me, fill all that I am and thank Him for all that He is. I stand in awe, amazed at the thought of my Father rejoicing in me, His child.
His Word comes to my mind and my heart:
"He will rejoice over you with gladness;
he will quiet you by his love;
he will exult over you with loud singing." Zephaniah 3:17b
my eyes are not raised too high;
I do not occupy myself with things
too great and too marvelous for me.
But I have calmed and quieted my soul,
like a weaned child with its mother;
like a weaned child is my soul within me.
from this time forth and forevermore." Psalm 131: 1-3
As I admire my son's glowing face, I wonder, "Is there really anything more important that I need to get done?" I'm thankful that all things important seem to get done as I take my focus off of things and tasks and live fully in the moment of loving my boys.
In addition, I know that as full as I am in this moment, this is just a glimpse. My boys are a gift from One far greater and in His presence there is fullness of joy.