Thursday, June 10, 2010

10 weeks 5 days

Today I woke up and the day kicked into gear and I felt like I had never gone to sleep.  I have felt like withdrawing from everything and hiding in a hole for this day.  "Why are you downcast?" echoed in my soul as I questioned extreme waves of sadness.  My body has shifted in to grief mode again, rather unexpectedly.

Moments ago, I realized that this is the exact day in my pregnancy that I found out I had lost Baby Ashlynn.  Surely that has something to do with the intensity of grief that has taken over my body.  I'm not as much worried about the baby I carry now as I am mostly reminded of this exact time during my last pregnancy.

So I'm holding on and hoping and looking forward to a new day.

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