Today I woke up and the day kicked into gear and I felt like I had never gone to sleep. I have felt like withdrawing from everything and hiding in a hole for this day. "Why are you downcast?" echoed in my soul as I questioned extreme waves of sadness. My body has shifted in to grief mode again, rather unexpectedly.
Moments ago, I realized that this is the exact day in my pregnancy that I found out I had lost Baby Ashlynn. Surely that has something to do with the intensity of grief that has taken over my body. I'm not as much worried about the baby I carry now as I am mostly reminded of this exact time during my last pregnancy.
So I'm holding on and hoping and looking forward to a new day.
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